Friday night is Prayer Retreat #2. To prepare, I'm clearing out old boxes in the basement. A box of journals needed to be moved, but I also needed to prepare my heart, so I read a few. Here is a glimpse back to the restoration in progress, January 2013. (Be mindful, this was a journal entry about a boy...)
"Not only am I holding onto a broken, human hope, but I am placing hope in a broken human. Christ's love brings victory, but I am unwilling to leave the battlefield of my earthly dreams. Eternal hope is for eternal souls. My feet are stubbornly set in the temporary.
By hanging onto a broken relationship with a broken human, I am choosing earthly identity over the Heavenly. My first name or last name doesn't even matter, because Christ has an altogether different name for me as His daughter. I must let go of these fleeting hopes--they only bring pain. His love is unfailing and eternal.
The problem is, I love like a human. My sin is so irrevocably strong--I can't fight it. The answer, though, is so much more beautiful. My Savior is the real and everlasting Champion. He defeated every sin. He defeated death. He purchased me. He makes me whole.
I am a citizen of Heaven. However I worship God, He remains God. Whoever I love as husband, Christ is my Savior. Truth cannot be changed by me. But praise You, Lord. I can be changed by the Truth!"-- January 24, 2013
"Somedays, I am the confident conqueror of the known world. Wanted and loved, there is no challenge beyond my grasp. I am trained and prepared for my tasks and my given name means 'victorious spirit'. On paper, I find myself impressive.
Yet, God in His infinite wisdom champions humility. My Master became an infant in order to save the entire world. My mightiest deeds will pass away without mention in the overwhelm of history, but the fact that God became human brought Heaven into the realm of earth. This is why humility is such a big deal.
Arrogance taints the sweet, fierce reflection of my Savior."--January 29, 2013
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
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Ephesians 5
Therefore, be imitators of God as dearly loved children and live in love, just as Christ also loved us and gave himself for us, a sacrificial and fragrant offering to God. But among you there must not be either sexual immorality, impurity of any kind, or greed, as these are not fitting for the saints. Neither should there be vulgar speech, foolish talk, or coarse jesting – all of which are out of character – but rather thanksgiving. For you can be confident of this one thing: that no person who is immoral, impure, or greedy (such a person is an idolater) has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and God.
Let nobody deceive you with empty words, for because of these things God’s wrath comes on the sons of disobedience. Therefore do not be partakers with them, for you were at one time darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of the light – for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness, and truth – and find out what pleases the Lord. Do not participate in the unfruitful deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. For the things they do in secret are shameful even to mention. But all things being exposed by the light are made evident. For everything made evident is light, and for this reason it says:
“Awake, O sleeper!
Rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you!”
Therefore be very careful how you live – not as unwise but as wise, taking advantage of every opportunity, because the days are evil. For this reason do not be foolish, but be wise by understanding what the Lord’s will is. And do not get drunk with wine, which is debauchery, but be filled by the Spirit, speaking to one another in psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs, singing and making music in your hearts to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for each other in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, and submitting to one another out of reverence for Christ.
Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord, because the husband is the head of the wife as also Christ is the head of the church – he himself being the savior of the body. But as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives just as Christ loved the church and gave himself for her to sanctify her by cleansing her with the washing of the water by the word, so that he may present the church to himself as glorious – not having a stain or wrinkle, or any such blemish, but holy and blameless. In the same way husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no one has ever hated his own body but he feeds it and takes care of it, just as Christ also does the church, for we are members of his body. For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and will be joined to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. This mystery is great – but I am actually speaking with reference to Christ and the church. Nevertheless, each one of you must also love his own wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.
Beautifully written, dear Laura. Moving thoughts. Thank you.
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